{"id":1479,"date":"2019-12-20T17:50:16","date_gmt":"2019-12-20T14:50:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/3gozdergisi.com\/?p=1479"},"modified":"2019-12-20T17:54:59","modified_gmt":"2019-12-20T14:54:59","slug":"1479","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/3gozdergisi.com\/?p=1479","title":{"rendered":"mavi tepeler…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Sana bir masal anlatmak istiyorum, dinler misin?\u00a0<\/span>Ben \u00e7ok sevdim, belki sen de sevebilir hatta kendini bu masal\u0131n kahramanlar\u0131ndan biri gibi hissedebilirsin.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Bir varm\u0131\u015f bir yokmu\u015f, \u00fclkelerden birinin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ve \u015firin bir kentinde ya\u015fayan yaln\u0131z bir kad\u0131n ile, gene ayn\u0131 \u00fclkenin ye\u015fili ile bilinen kentinin, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kasabas\u0131nda ya\u015fayan adam\u0131n yollar\u0131, hi\u00e7 beklenmedik bir anda, bir \u015fekilde kesi\u015fivermi\u015f. Oysa ki\u00a0aralar\u0131nda a\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 \u00f6yle zor, \u00f6yle imkans\u0131z mavi tepeler varm\u0131\u015f ki.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u015eimdi diyeceksin, madem b\u00f6ylesine zormu\u015f da, nas\u0131l olmu\u015f bu iki yabanc\u0131n\u0131n yollar\u0131 birle\u015fivermi\u015f? \u00c7a\u011f\u0131n getirdi\u011fi ileri bir teknoloji varm\u0131\u015f, i\u00e7inde her t\u00fcrl\u00fc bilgiyi bar\u0131nd\u0131ran, uzaklar\u0131 yak\u0131n ediveren, g\u00fcn gelip insanlar\u0131 ger\u00e7eklerinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131veren, yalan\u0131 yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131 do\u011fru yap\u0131veren, nice sevgiler yarat\u0131p ya\u015fam\u0131 g\u00fczelle\u015ftiren ancak o \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde de ac\u0131lar\u0131, hatalar\u0131, \u00e7aresizlikleri ve nice hasretleri de beraberinde getiriveren bir d\u00fcnyaym\u0131\u015f bu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir sanal d\u00fcnya.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn kad\u0131n hi\u00e7 beklemedi\u011fi, planlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir anda burada adamla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015f. G\u00fcnlerce s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeleri, kad\u0131n her sabah co\u015fku ve heyecanla uyan\u0131p a\u00e7\u0131veriyormu\u015f sanal d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, \u2018Belki rastlar\u0131m gene\u2019 diye. Adam da \u00f6yle istemi\u015f ki; kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015flar her seferinde a\u00e7\u0131lan bu kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131nda. Konu\u015fmalar\u0131, payla\u015f\u0131mlar\u0131, ara s\u0131ra birbirlerinin seslerini duymalar\u0131, kad\u0131nla adam\u0131 birbirlerine \u00f6ylesine yakla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ki, oradaki payla\u015f\u0131m art\u0131k onlara yetmez olmu\u015f ve her ikisi de bu duyguyu kendilerine\u00a0ya\u015fatan di\u011fer yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rmek, tan\u0131mak istemi\u015f.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn adam, \u2018Seni g\u00f6rmek istiyorum\u2019 demi\u015f, kad\u0131n da hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden kabul etmi\u015f, hemen bulu\u015facaklar\u0131 yeri kararla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar. Adam daha \u00f6ncelerinde kad\u0131nla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fckleri sanal d\u00fcnyalar\u0131nda onun\u00a0sayfas\u0131ndaki resmi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde ..aram\u0131zda i\u015fte b\u00f6yle bir engel var, a\u015f\u0131lamaz\u00a0bu mavi tepeler dermi\u015f\u00a0 hep ,ancak o g\u00fcn\u00a0o tepeleri\u00a0ard\u0131nda b\u0131rakarak , kad\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kente gelmi\u015f.Kad\u0131n heyecanla ve sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla beklemi\u015f adam\u0131 belirledikleri yerde… \u015fehrinin tren gar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde..ve o an gelmi\u015f ve adam kad\u0131n\u0131 arayarak arabas\u0131n\u0131 park etti\u011fi yerde onu bekledi\u011fini s\u00f6ylemi\u015f… i\u015fte orada,vi\u015fne \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fc rengi arabas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda,omuzlar\u0131na att\u0131\u011f\u0131 kaza\u011f\u0131 ile adam onu bekliyormu\u015f. Kad\u0131n onu daha fazla bekletmeme tela\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7inde adama uzaktan\u00a0bak\u0131vermi\u015f, sanki onu y\u0131llard\u0131r tan\u0131yormu\u015f hissine kap\u0131l\u0131vermi\u015f bir an,o kad\u0131n\u0131n eksik taraf\u0131ym\u0131\u015f sanki,\u00a0yan\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f i\u015fte… K\u0131sa bir merhabala\u015fmadan sonra kad\u0131n arabaya binmi\u015f ve nedenini asla bilemeyecekleri bir duygu ile onun\u00a0evine do\u011fru \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flar yola, oysa daha sonralar\u0131nda bu nedenle ilgili sorgulamalar\u0131nda, asl\u0131nda her ikisinin de ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmediklerini anlam\u0131\u015flar, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckleri ,planlad\u0131klar\u0131 sadece birbirlerini g\u00f6rmek, bir yerlerde oturup \u00e7ay yada kahvelerini yudumlarken sohbet edebilmekmi\u015f… ancak olmas\u0131 gerekenler olmu\u015f ve adamla kad\u0131n gidilmesi ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz olan o hem \u00e7ok g\u00fczel hem de \u00e7ok zor yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131vermi\u015fler bile.<\/span><\/p>\n

O eyl\u00fcl ay\u0131n\u0131n son g\u00fcnlerinden birinde, o yolda,direksiyondaki adam\u0131n\u00a0yan\u0131nda oturan\u00a0 kad\u0131n\u00a0s\u00fcrekli bir \u015feyler anlat\u0131p duruyormu\u015f, sanki adam onun yeni tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 biri de\u011fil de, \u00e7ok yak\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ok iyi bildi\u011fi biri, daha \u00f6nce g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi\u00a0 bir yerden, uzaklardan d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f de kar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015f gibiymi\u015f. Adam ise onu sessizce ve duda\u011f\u0131nda hafif bir\u00a0tebess\u00fcm ile dinliyormu\u015f, sessizce… evet bu onun hep\u00a0ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir durummu\u015f, sessizlik… bu\u00a0 onun karakterinin bir par\u00e7as\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u00a0\u00a0ve\u00a0ayn\u0131 zamanda da \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli bir nedeni\u00a0varm\u0131\u015f… <\/span><\/p>\n

Beraberliklerinin aylar sonras\u0131nda kad\u0131n bu nedeni anlamaya, hissetmeye ba\u015flayacak, anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ve \u00e7ok daha sonras\u0131nda bildi\u011finde, art\u0131k \u00e7ok ge\u00e7\u00a0\u00a0ve geri d\u00f6n\u00fclemeyece\u011fi bir noktaya gelmi\u015f olacaklarm\u0131\u015f… vi\u015fne \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fc\u011f\u00fc rengi araba kad\u0131n\u0131n soka\u011f\u0131na girdi\u011fi anda ben ne yap\u0131yorum diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f kad\u0131n ama susmu\u015f, bir \u015fey dememi\u015f adama. Kad\u0131n evinde ba\u015f ba\u015faym\u0131\u015f art\u0131k adamla… yemek boyunca anlatm\u0131\u015flar birbirlerine kendilerini ve ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131 tekrar… kad\u0131n e\u015finden ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f uzun bir zaman \u00f6nce, adam da \u00f6yle, \u00e7ocu\u011fu da yokmu\u015f, b\u00f6yle anlat\u0131yormu\u015f kad\u0131na… onlar sohbetlerine devam ederlerken, gene olmas\u0131 gerekenler oluyor ve adamla kad\u0131n birbirlerine daha \u00e7ok yakla\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 hissediyorlarm\u0131\u015f… bir an gelmi\u015f ki, yan yana oturduklar\u0131 kanepede, bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemek i\u00e7in adama do\u011fru d\u00f6nen kad\u0131n, onunla y\u00fcz y\u00fcze gelmi\u015f… i\u015fte bu masal\u0131 ba\u015flatan an o olmu\u015f… nas\u0131l oldu\u011funu anlayamadan birbirlerine \u00f6ylesine yakla\u015f\u0131vermi\u015fler ki,dudaklar\u0131 birle\u015fivermi\u015f… sanki bir daha ayr\u0131lamayacaklarm\u0131\u015f gibi \u00e7ok uzun bir s\u00fcre, \u00f6ylece kalakalm\u0131\u015flar… daha sonras\u0131nda birbirlerinden ayr\u0131ld\u0131klar\u0131nda… kad\u0131n biraz\u00a0geriye \u00e7ekilip, ellerini \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla iki yana a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131nda dudaklar\u0131ndan \u015fu s\u00f6zler d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcvermi\u015f… bu ne\u00a0yaa… i\u015fte bu s\u00f6zler!<\/span><\/p>\n

her \u015feyi ile i\u00e7inde, sevgi, \u00f6zlem, merak, \u015f\u00fcphe, kay\u0131ts\u0131zl\u0131k, ayr\u0131l\u0131klar, yalanlar, g\u00fczellikler, k\u0131sa mutluluklar, uykusuz geceler, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 ve beraberinde daha pek \u00e7ok duygu ve kelimelerin ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir birlikteli\u011fin ba\u015flang\u0131c\u0131 olmu\u015f, art\u0131k o anda geriye d\u00f6nmek, hi\u00e7 ba\u015flamamak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok ge\u00e7mi\u015f .Birlikte ge\u00e7irilen o iki g\u00fczel g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonras\u0131nda, adam kad\u0131nla uzun uzun kucakla\u015f\u0131p, vedala\u015farak, y\u00fcre\u011finde ve akl\u0131nda kad\u0131n, \u015fehrine geri d\u00f6nmek \u00fczere mavi tepelere do\u011fru yola \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f… geride \u015fa\u015fk\u0131n, h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc, y\u00fcre\u011finde ise koskoca bir sevda kalan kad\u0131n\u0131 b\u0131rakarak.<\/span><\/p>\n

Adam\u0131n gidi\u015finden sonraki hafta i\u00e7inde bir s\u00fcre g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015febilmi\u015fler… ancak bir g\u00fcn kad\u0131n, adam\u0131n koyu bir sessizli\u011fe g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcverdi\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015f, art\u0131k ne yazd\u0131klar\u0131na ne de aramalar\u0131na yan\u0131t alabiliyormu\u015f, sanki \u00e7\u0131k\u0131vermi\u015f sessizce kad\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131ndan, t\u0131pk\u0131 girdi\u011fi gibi… oysa vazge\u00e7ememi\u015f kad\u0131n ondan,devam etmi\u015f onu aramaya ve g\u00fcnler sonras\u0131nda … geliyorum… demi\u015f adam ona, tekrar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fler, gelmi\u015f gene adam kad\u0131n\u0131n \u015fehrine, mavi tepeleri ard\u0131nda b\u0131rakarak… aylarca s\u00fcren bu birliktelikte kad\u0131n, bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u00e7\u00f6zememi\u015f adam\u0131, davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n nedenini, s\u00fcrekli ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f ve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015flerini anlamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yormu\u015f, baz\u0131 \u015f\u00fcpheler, sorular akl\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f asl\u0131nda hep ama bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek istemiyormu\u015f… \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ona g\u00fcveniyormu\u015f. <\/span><\/p>\n

Art\u0131k hep ayn\u0131 \u015feyler ya\u015fan\u0131r, tekrarlan\u0131r olmu\u015f, birlikte ge\u00e7irdikleri anlar her zaman sevgi dolu, mutlu, huzurlu ancak adam\u0131n gidi\u015flerinden sonraki haftalarda ise, \u00e7aresizlikler i\u00e7inde, akl\u0131nda bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc yan\u0131t alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 pek \u00e7ok soru,\u00a0\u015f\u00fcphe dolu g\u00fcnler, geceler ya\u015famaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n.zaman zaman bu soru ve \u015f\u00fcphelerini payla\u015fm\u0131\u015f adamla ama ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yan\u0131tlar asla rahatlatmam\u0131\u015f onu…. adam ise\u00a0hep sessizli\u011fini korur olmu\u015f.<\/span><\/p>\n

Aylar sonras\u0131nda bir g\u00fcn kad\u0131n art\u0131k ondan hi\u00e7 haber alamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etmi\u015f, gitmi\u015f adam yine sessizce , hi\u00e7bir a\u00e7\u0131klama yapmadan kad\u0131ndan… o ise hi\u00e7 b\u0131kmadan, vazge\u00e7meden, yazmaya, aramaya devam etmi\u015f g\u00fcnlerce, merak etmi\u015f adam\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ok ona\u00a0bir \u015fey mi oldu acaba diye… s\u0131zlam\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fi… \u00e7ok zor ge\u00e7en o karanl\u0131k g\u00fcnlerden birinde adamdan bir yan\u0131t alm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n…<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

hastaym\u0131\u015f. adam… b<\/span>ir s\u00fcre tedavi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, art\u0131k ya\u015fam ona a\u011f\u0131r geliyormu\u015f ve kad\u0131n\u0131 da, ona duydu\u011fu sevgisini de ta\u015f\u0131yam\u0131yormu\u015f art\u0131k, bitmeliymi\u015f… b\u00f6yle diyormu\u015f adam. Bu bir veda mektubuymu\u015f… kad\u0131n bir taraftan ondan haber ald\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinirken di\u011fer yandan da ac\u0131lara, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na bo\u011fulmu\u015f okuduk\u00e7a\u00a0her sat\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 yazd\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131n adam\u0131n… kabullenmi\u015f kad\u0131n bu durumu, yeter ki o iyi olsun diye…<\/span><\/p>\n

O g\u00fcnden sonra hi\u00e7 unutmam\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n onu, yine sevmi\u015f, yine \u00f6zlemi\u015f, yine merak etmi\u015f… aradan ge\u00e7en uzunca bir zaman sonra, bir g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p gelivermi\u015f adam… yine mavi tepeleri ard\u0131nda b\u0131rakarak…<\/span>\u00a0kad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kente… o da unutamam\u0131\u015f onu… \u00f6zlemi\u015f o da hep, merak etmi\u015f… daha sonraki aylar kad\u0131n i\u00e7in bir kabusa d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, zaman zaman onun nedensiz sessizlikleri, kaybolu\u015flar\u0131 ve bazen de vedala\u015fmadan yok olu\u015flar\u0131… kad\u0131n\u0131… kendi i\u00e7inde sorgulamalara g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f hep… bir neden aram\u0131\u015f… buldu\u011funda… anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda… ve daha sonras\u0131nda bildi\u011finde ise art\u0131k \u00e7ok ge\u00e7mi\u015f… yalan s\u00f6ylemi\u015f adam ona, sevdi\u011fini s\u00f6yledi\u011fi kad\u0131na… evliymi\u015f adam, \u00fcstelik de iki \u00e7ocu\u011fu da varm\u0131\u015f… <\/span><\/p>\n

kad\u0131n bu sonu\u00e7lara hep kendi hisleri, ayr\u0131nt\u0131lara tak\u0131lma \u00f6zelli\u011fi, ara\u015ft\u0131rmalar\u0131yla ula\u015fm\u0131\u015f… ancak bu s\u00fcre\u00e7 \u00f6ylesine zor, \u00f6yle karanl\u0131k ge\u00e7mi\u015f ki kad\u0131n i\u00e7in… susmu\u015f \u00f6nceleri, t\u00fcm ger\u00e7eklerini art\u0131k bildi\u011fi halde adam\u0131n, beklemi\u015f… neden demi\u015f, neden adam her gidi\u015finde, her vedas\u0131nda bir yalan s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor… bunca oyuna ne gerek var, neden a\u00e7\u0131k y\u00fcreklilikle anlatm\u0131yor her \u015feyi, neden d\u00fcr\u00fcst\u00e7e veda etmiyor ve hep bir drama \u00e7eviriyor gidi\u015flerini? <\/span><\/p>\n

\u00f6yle oyunlar oynuyor ki hem gidiyor, hem de ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmemi, aramam\u0131 bekliyor sanki, neden diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f kad\u0131n hep… ama gene de \u00f6zlemi\u015f, merak etmi\u015f adam\u0131, art\u0131k hi\u00e7 uyuyamaz olmu\u015f, sanki ya\u015famdan yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00e7ekildi\u011fini hissetmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f..hele ki o g\u00fcn yani adam\u0131n ger\u00e7e\u011fini t\u00fcm \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0ile \u00f6\u011frendi\u011fi o an, kad\u0131n asla unutamayaca\u011f\u0131 bir ac\u0131yla sars\u0131lm\u0131\u015f… telefondaki ses sorular\u0131na yan\u0131t verirken y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131vermi\u015f kad\u0131n… bu kez b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sars\u0131nt\u0131yla, sanki camdanm\u0131\u015f kalbi, k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, tuz buz olmu\u015f… duymu\u015f o sesleri, ac\u0131m\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fi, ac\u0131tm\u0131\u015f k\u0131r\u0131lan her par\u00e7a onu tekrar, tekrar… i\u015fte o g\u00fcn, o andan sonra susmu\u015f kad\u0131n… bu sefer sessiz olan oymu\u015f… sormam\u0131\u015f adama, s\u00f6ylememi\u015f bildi\u011fini… beklemi\u015f, bekledik\u00e7e daha \u00e7ok ac\u0131m\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fi, hi\u00e7 uyumam\u0131\u015f yine… sabah\u0131n ilk \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 odas\u0131n\u0131 ayd\u0131nlat\u0131ncaya dek. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ruhu ve bedeni art\u0131k ta\u015f\u0131yamaz olmu\u015f bu ger\u00e7ekleri, t\u00fckenmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissetmi\u015f her h\u00fccresinin… yine zor ge\u00e7en bir gecenin sabah\u0131nda… ya\u015fanmal\u0131 art\u0131k her ne ya\u015fanacaksa diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f… vazge\u00e7mi\u015f sevdas\u0131ndan… adama kar\u015f\u0131 duydu\u011fu o \u00e7ok derin sevgi\u00a0ancak\u00a0buraya kadar ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131… o do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde adamla birlikte olmak istemi\u015f… istemi\u015f ki, do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc ayn\u0131 zamanda sevgisinin bitti\u011fi g\u00fcn olsun… kad\u0131n\u0131n bildiklerinden haberi olmayan adam o g\u00fcn gelemem ama birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00f6ncesinde olaca\u011f\u0131m yan\u0131nda demi\u015f… <\/span><\/p>\n

ve yine mavi tepeleri ard\u0131nda b\u0131rakarak kad\u0131n\u0131n kentine gelivermi\u015f, \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f gene kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, bu sefer elinde tek bir k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fclle,bu kad\u0131n\u0131n adamdan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk ve son \u00e7i\u00e7ek, hediye olmu\u015f… yine sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015flar birbirlerine uzun uzun kad\u0131n\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde, yine b\u00fcy\u00fckm\u00fc\u015f \u00f6zlemleri… susmu\u015f \u00f6ncesinde kad\u0131n, uzun bir s\u00fcre sormam\u0131\u015f, yarg\u0131lamam\u0131\u015f, s\u00f6ylememi\u015f ona ama sonras\u0131nda gece yar\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru bildiklerini, ger\u00e7eklerini anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131nda adama… “g\u00f6nder beni ne olur” demi\u015f adam g\u00f6zleri nemlenerek. Kabul etmemi\u015f kad\u0131n, g\u00f6ndermemi\u015f adam\u0131… her seferindeki gidi\u015flerinden biri gibi olmas\u0131n\u0131 istemi\u015f, ya\u015fanmal\u0131 her ne ya\u015fanacaksa son kez demi\u015f ve adama hi\u00e7bir \u015fey sormam\u0131\u015f, s\u00f6ylememi\u015f kad\u0131n art\u0131k…ya\u015fam\u0131\u015flar yine o \u00e7ok k\u0131sa zaman diliminde sevdalar\u0131n\u0131, t\u00fcm ger\u00e7e\u011fi k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcrede olsa unutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak…<\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte gene\u00a0ayr\u0131l\u0131k zaman\u0131 gelmi\u015f, yine sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015flar uzun uzun birbirlerine, vedala\u015fm\u0131\u015flar ama bu sefer ki \u00e7ok farkl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f… art\u0131k bu son vedaym\u0131\u015f… y\u00fcre\u011finde sevda, akl\u0131nda kad\u0131n gitmi\u015f adam mavi tepeleri son kez a\u015farak ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kente do\u011fru… geride y\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f bir y\u00fcrek, bir kad\u0131n b\u0131rakarak… adam\u0131n gidi\u015finden bir ka\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra o do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnde, kad\u0131n hep o \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 dinlemi\u015f, adamla birlikte dinledi\u011fi, ilk ve son kez dans ettikleri… “yastay\u0131m” diyormu\u015f \u015fark\u0131c\u0131 bir \u015fark\u0131s\u0131nda… bir di\u011ferinde ise… “d\u00f6n diyemedim” diyormu\u015f. <\/span><\/p>\n

Ac\u0131 duymu\u015f yine kad\u0131n, y\u00fcre\u011findeki k\u0131r\u0131k par\u00e7alar ac\u0131tm\u0131\u015f onu gene… Gitmi\u015fti adam bu sefer mavi tepeleri son kez a\u015farak, y\u00fcre\u011finde sevdas\u0131 par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f, tuz buz olmu\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131 geride b\u0131rakarak… <\/span><\/p>\n

Ben bu masal\u0131 buraya kadar biliyorum. asl\u0131nda masal\u0131 yaratan kad\u0131n\u0131n kendisiydi belki. adam\u0131 \u00f6ylesine sevmi\u015f ki, hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey vazge\u00e7irememi\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131 ondan. y\u00fcre\u011fi ile yazm\u0131\u015f, ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015f bu masal\u0131 ama sonunda i\u015fte k\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f y\u00fcre\u011fi, yazamam\u0131\u015f devam\u0131n\u0131. masal bu ya; olmu\u015f i\u015fte.<\/span><\/p>\n

masal\u0131n sonunu sende merak ediyorsun de\u011fil mi? bunu her ikisi de,kad\u0131n ve adamda asla bilememi\u015fler. Adam\u0131n sanal d\u00fcnyalar\u0131nda kad\u0131na s\u00f6yledi\u011fi \u015fey ger\u00e7ek olmu\u015f. a\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 \u00e7ok zormu\u015f. a\u015f\u0131lamazm\u0131\u015f mavi tepeler.<\/span><\/p>\n

Yazar\u0131 kim?\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sana bir masal anlatmak istiyorum, dinler misin?\u00a0Ben \u00e7ok sevdim, belki sen de sevebilir hatta kendini bu masal\u0131n kahramanlar\u0131ndan biri gibi hissedebilirsin. 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