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“Ben senim ve ben senin i\u00e7inde ger\u00e7ekle\u015fiyorum…\u00a0\u00a0<\/strong>Beni d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc senin i\u00e7indeyim. B\u00f6ceklerden galaksilere dek, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ve dokundu\u011fun her \u015fey senin\u00a0 i\u00e7indedir, yoksa onlar\u0131 ne g\u00f6rebilir, ne de onlara dokunabilirdin.” (*)<\/strong><\/div>\n
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\u0130lk sevgiyi annemle babam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce anlad\u0131m. Birbirlerini sevdiler ki, ben d\u00fcnyaya\u00a0gelmi\u015fim. Sonra uzun\u00a0y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti.\u00a0B\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm, be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ma geldim. Amcam\u0131n, halam\u0131n k\u0131zlar\u0131 da b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc; onlarda 15-16 ya\u015flar\u0131ndayd\u0131. S\u00fcrekli “a\u015fk, a\u015fk, a\u015fk!” diyorlard\u0131… Ahhh, ben de a\u015f\u0131kt\u0131m o\u00a0zamanlar… H\u00fcseyin abiye. \u00c7ok g\u00fczeldi onu g\u00f6rmek,\u00a0sonradan anlad\u0131m ki, kand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc kuzenler sadece benim s\u0131r tutmam i\u00e7in aram\u0131z\u0131 yapm\u0131\u015flar H\u00fcseyin abiyle… \u0130\u015fte, a\u015fkta ilk k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131 b\u00f6yle ya\u015fad\u0131m.<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u0130lk okuluma gitti\u011fimde sar\u0131\u015f, yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 bir adamla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, “ohh be!” dedim\u00a0“nihayet ya\u015f\u0131ma, ba\u015f\u0131ma uygun a\u015fk\u0131 sonunda buldum sonunda”. Ondan da annem ay\u0131rd\u0131 beni; okulumu de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Ben a\u015fk kad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131m ya! \u00e7ok takmad\u0131m. Di\u011fer okulda Tu\u011frul vard\u0131 4. s\u0131n\u0131fta. Ona a\u015f\u0131k oldum. Hem \u00e7ok \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkand\u0131, hem de ne bileyim onda ho\u015fuma giden y\u00fcz\u00fcnde bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn vard\u0131, babas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bu arada H\u00fcseyin abiyi unutmu\u015ftum bile ama Sinan’\u0131 asla unutmayacakt\u0131m. Kalbim \u00e7ok b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fc benim, Tu\u011frul’a da, Sinan’a da bol bol yerim vard\u0131.<\/div>\n
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Ortaokula ge\u00e7ti\u011fimde Tu\u011frul ba\u015fka bir \u015fehre okumaya gitmi\u015fti. A\u015fk\u0131 kalbimde… Kimselerde bilmiyordu benim a\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fumu.<\/p>\n

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Bir y\u0131l kadar a\u015fks\u0131z ya\u015fad\u0131ktan sonra orta ikinci s\u0131n\u0131fa giderken okula \u00e7\u0131t\u0131r bir Fen Bilgisi \u00f6\u011fretmeni geldi,\u00a0 “Aman tanr\u0131m” oldum bir anda. Kalbim yine uyanm\u0131\u015f, p\u0131r p\u0131r \u00e7arpmaktayd\u0131! Ama onun zaten kendisi kadar b\u00fcy\u00fck a\u015fk\u0131 vard\u0131…\u00a0Allah’\u0131m, bu a\u015fk olay\u0131 ne kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131?<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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O zamanlar \u0130\u00e7imde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131, kalabal\u0131k ve platonik a\u015fkla pek bir kar\u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131m. Seviyordum ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ifade edemiyordum. Dedim ki; “Bunlar de\u011fil sanki,\u00a0peki, neydi bu a\u015fk dedikleri?<\/strong><\/div>\n
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Y\u0131l ortaokul s\u0131ralar\u0131. Bir arkada\u015f\u0131mla okul yollar\u0131nda gezinirken birini tavlad\u0131k, tamamen al\u0131n terimizle vallahi! Tarihini de hi\u00e7 unutmam, 14 may\u0131s. B\u00fclent idi ad\u0131. Ve i\u015fte onunla ilk a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131m. Can\u0131m benim,\u00a0o kavak yelleri a\u015fk\u0131md\u0131r benim . Bu biraz \u00f6tekilerden farkl\u0131yd\u0131. Duygular, biraz da hormonlar vard\u0131 i\u015fin i\u00e7inde… daha d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce kalbim \u00e7arp\u0131yor, heyecanlan\u0131yordum onu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, g\u00f6rmeyince de \u00f6zl\u00fcyordum… Ne yaz\u0131k ki, 4 cevaps\u0131z mektup, sorunlu bir a\u015fk’\u0131 ifade ile\u00a0B\u00fclent’de bitti, gitti… Tabii yan\u0131ts\u0131z kalan mektuplar, sabr\u0131 gibi, a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 da t\u00fcketti…<\/div>\n
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Karar verdim,\u00a0bu sefer a\u015fka kendimi kapayacakt\u0131m, ya\u015f 15 olmu\u015ftu ve ben bu i\u015fi hala anlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, o zaman bende A\u015eK’tan uzak duracakt\u0131m. Bundan sonras\u0131 kendi kendime B\u00fclent’e platonik a\u015fk beslemekle ge\u00e7ti… zor g\u00fcnlerdi. Ta, evlenene kadar.<\/div>\n
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A\u015fk evlili\u011fi de\u011fildi ama biliyorsunuz bu sorun de\u011fil, ben a\u015fk kad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131m ya, yaratt\u0131m hemen. Her \u015fey \u00e7ok g\u00fczel giderken 6-7 y\u0131l, offfff, yine bir \u015fey oldu! Kendi halinde d\u00f6nen d\u00fcnya birdenbire\u00a0d\u00f6nmez, ay g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00f6r\u00fcnmez, g\u00fcl y\u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00fclmez oldu i\u015fte!.. Biten bir \u015fey vard\u0131; o biten A\u015eK’t\u0131!<\/div>\n
Gittim bende… \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben a\u015fk kad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131m, a\u015fk\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde kalamazd\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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Sonra Faruk girdi hayat\u0131ma, \u0130lk kez Allah’\u0131ma o zaman mektup yazd\u0131m i\u015fte!\u00a0“Allah’\u0131m” dedim, “biliyorum ‘yaln\u0131zl\u0131k’ bir sana mahsus, ama ne olur bana da \u00f6\u011fret. \u015eu an sevgilimleyim ama acaip ac\u0131lar i\u00e7indeyim.. Allah’\u0131m bana yard\u0131m et!” dedim,\u00a0sonra emir olmas\u0131n diye “l\u00fctfen eder misin?” diye mektubumu d\u00fczelttim… \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevgili Faruk’a “seni seviyorum” derken gelen\u00a0cevap \u015fuydu: “Ben beni sevmiyorum ki, seni sevebileyim”…<\/div>\n
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Ne b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lar ya\u015fad\u0131m bilemezsiniz. Ben de beni sevemedi\u011fimden\u00a0midir nedir Faruk’u sevmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum ya zaten, o zaman \u00e7ivi \u00e7iviyi s\u00f6kemez miydi?\u00a0Ne komikti, iki\u00a0kendisini sevemeyen birle\u015fmi\u015f, a\u015fk ya\u015famaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. \u015eimdi anlad\u0131m ki, rahmeti bol olsun Faruk bana\u00a0\u00f6nce kendini sev<\/strong>menin \u00f6nemini anlatm\u0131\u015f<\/b>t\u0131 ve ben birini nas\u0131l sevebilirim dersinde duygusall\u0131kta tavan yapm\u0131\u015f, s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m…<\/div>\n
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Sonra Aldo girdi hayat\u0131ma. \u0130lk defa din, dil, renk ay\u0131rd\u0131ndan vazge\u00e7mi\u015ftim… Ne yalan s\u00f6yleyeyim? Onda da;\u00a0ben ne kadar sevilebilirim,\u00a0\u00f6\u011frendim.\u00a0<\/strong>Ama\u00a0\u015f\u00f6yle diyeyim arkada\u015f; sen kendini sevmiyorsan, inan, seni \u00e7ok seveni de ziyan ediyorsun! Haliyle ziyan oldu bizimkisi de…<\/div>\n
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Neyse A\u015fk’\u0131 ararken bundan sonras\u0131 ger\u00e7ekten bir eziyete d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Vazge\u00e7tim sanki…<\/div>\n
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Ama gel g\u00f6r ki, i\u00e7imdeki ‘a\u015fk kad\u0131n\u0131’ durmuyordu, duymuyordu beni. Dedim ki kendime; “ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri yap\u0131p farkl\u0131 \u015feyleri bekleyenlere ‘deli’ diyorlarsa ben hen\u00fcz ak\u0131ll\u0131yken farkl\u0131 bir \u015fey yap\u0131y\u0131m bari;\u00a0a\u015fk’\u0131\u00a0d\u0131\u015far\u0131da bulam\u0131yorsam, bir de i\u00e7ime bi bakay\u0131m!”\u00a0<\/strong><\/div>\n
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\u0130\u015fte\u00a0olanlar o zaman oldu!<\/div>\n
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Bug\u00fcne kadar bir \u015fekilde hayat\u0131ma giren herkesin neden girdi\u011fini nihayet anlad\u0131m; Onlar beni bana yans\u0131t\u0131rlarken beni de asl\u0131nda\u00a0bir’<\/strong>den\u00a0bin’<\/strong>e b\u00f6lmektelermi\u015f …\u00a0asl\u0131nda b\u00f6len\u00a0onlar<\/strong>\u00a0de\u011fil benim ikirciklik i\u00e7inde ya\u015fayan zihnimmi\u015f.\u00a0\u00d6rne\u011fin siz,\u00a0birini seviyorsunuz ve sonra anla\u015fam\u0131yor ayr\u0131l\u0131yorsunuz ya, ayr\u0131lmak isteyen\u00a0kim olursa olsun ortada bir \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc oluyor, de\u011fil\u00a0mi, neden?\u00a0\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc o ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015fta kendinizi yar\u0131m hissediyorsunuz da ondan. O\u00a0gidince zihninizi me\u015fgul eden yar\u0131 da gidecek ya, geriye bilmedi\u011finiz kocaman -ya da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck- bir bo\u015fluk kalacak ve belki de siz o bilmedi\u011finiz bo\u015fluk duygusuyla u\u011fra\u015fmaktansa, i\u015finize gelmese de bildi\u011finiz olumsuz da olsa o duyguyu ya\u015famak i\u00e7in olay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilirsiniz. (sadece se\u00e7im bu)<\/div>\n
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Ben bunu nas\u0131l \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fcm? T\u00fcm a\u015fklar\u0131m\u0131 bir bir tarad\u0131m ve her defas\u0131nda i\u00e7imden s\u00f6ke s\u00f6ke \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131m duygular\u0131m\u0131 bir bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m, i\u015fledi\u011fim ve sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 bir \u015fekilde yerine yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fim bir a\u015fk i\u00e7inde GER\u00c7E\u011e\u0130 anlad\u0131m. Ve reddetti\u011fim Havva rol\u00fcme tekrar d\u00f6nd\u00fcm.\u00a0Bu d\u00fcnyaya gelirken\u00a0kad\u0131n formundaki bedenimi, t\u00fcm duygular\u0131yla deneyimlemeyi se\u00e7mi\u015ftim. Hayat yoluna beni getiren annem-babam, kocaman \u00e7ift tarafl\u0131 ailem, hayat yolunda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m ki\u015filer, toplumsal y\u00f6nlendirmeler, okul, din, dil, politika, geleneksel k\u00fclt\u00fcrlerin etkile\u015fimi\u00a0ile iyice ayr\u0131\u015fan zihnimin oyunlar\u0131 beni yoldan \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131…<\/div>\n
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Sa\u011fl\u0131kl\u0131 olmak demek beden-zihin- ruh mekanizmas\u0131n\u0131 anlamak demek. Kad\u0131n veya erkek bedeninde\u00a0TAM<\/strong>\u00a0olmay\u0131 hat\u0131rlamak demek… B\u00f6yle bir bili\u015fle sevdi\u011fin zaman\u00a0bir yar\u0131n\u0131<\/strong>\u00a0tamamlamay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131yor, B\u00dcT\u00dcN\u00dc ya\u015f\u0131yorsun\u00a0<\/strong>… aynen d\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6renin dedi\u011fi gibi:\u00a0“Sadece b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fck sevebilir ve ancak t\u00fcm g\u00f6rkemiyle olu\u015fun tam hali sevgiyi i\u00e7erebilir.”<\/strong><\/div>\n
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\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc d\u0131\u015far\u0131da hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok!\u00a0TAM bir bilin\u00e7te sevebiliyor musun? i\u015fte o zaman A\u015eK’tas\u0131n.<\/strong><\/div>\n
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A\u015fk’ta, a\u015fk’la kal!<\/div>\n
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Bana ya\u015fatan, anlatan t\u00fcm ‘oyun’ arkada\u015flar\u0131ma bu vesile ile te\u015fekk\u00fcr ediyorum. Beni birden al\u0131p bine b\u00f6len ve sonra birle\u015ftiren t\u00fcm oyun arkada\u015flar\u0131ma,<\/div>\n
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Yazan: G\u00fcler P\u0131narba\u015f\u0131<\/div>\n
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“Ben senim ve ben senin i\u00e7inde ger\u00e7ekle\u015fiyorum…\u00a0\u00a0Beni d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc senin i\u00e7indeyim. B\u00f6ceklerden galaksilere dek, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn ve dokundu\u011fun her \u015fey senin\u00a0 i\u00e7indedir, yoksa onlar\u0131 ne g\u00f6rebilir, ne de onlara dokunabilirdin.” (*) \u0130lk sevgiyi annemle babam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce anlad\u0131m. Birbirlerini sevdiler ki, ben d\u00fcnyaya\u00a0gelmi\u015fim. Sonra uzun\u00a0y\u0131llar ge\u00e7ti.\u00a0B\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm, be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ma geldim. 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